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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: Emotional / mental Contamination

« on: August 23, 2021 »

Thanks John I am reading your book as we speak I suspected it could be a feelings/emotional issue as I don’t often show my emotions, you know typical male thing. Back when this happened I felt a lot of anger and ‘why is this happening to me’ but couldn’t really express it. If I mentioned to anyone that I hated the car they thought I was being somehow unappreciative or silly.
I am going to try the alpha state to uncover the feelings. I just wonder whether I should be trying to go all the way back to when it happened, or instead to focus on the present day situations where it affects me. For example I had avoided the laminate floor for years as I know it once was in the car when it was bought, but I ‘mistakenly’ stepped on it barefooted recently when my dad called me into the room. I had walked in it before with socks and threw them away after but this was barefoot so immediately I had to have a shower and try to ‘clean’ my foot. Crazy isn’t it? On a thought level, I can think ‘a third party uses this floor so why can’t I?’ The problem is I know the floor had contact with the car so my mind tells me it’s contaminated and I should avoid it.
Anyway thanks for your time in responding.

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Emotional / mental Contamination

« on: August 22, 2021 »

Hi
I’m posting from the UK. Many years ago when I was about 20 (now 40) I had been working for a few years in IT, I got this job where you were given a company car, at the time I wasn’t excited by this as i liked owning my own cars and couldn’t really keep two. After a while the company bought some new cars which I didn’t really like but for some reason didn’t do enough to stop them as I was still young and a bit shy and afraid of authority. As soon as I was assigned the car I felt bad like this was something I’d regret letting happen. The car was not really a typical company car as it was more of an old mans car, old fashioned looking estate. Certainly not what a 20 year old would want especially me. I continued in this job but was unhappy as I had to drive this car I disliked and was hating more as time went on. I kept trying to suppress my feelings and concentrate on other things instead, there were plenty of other things at that age i was occupied with. Eventually though I kept coming back to the dislike of the car. It got to me after nearly 2 years and I was desperate to get out of the situation and nearly quit the job and told people I didn’t like the car. I was told they would get new cars but it would be a while so I hung on in the hope of the car being replaced. However it got to a point where I started to revile the car and see it as being dirty/disgusting. I started to see things in the car as being contaminated/infected. I would have to have a bath when I got it from work and change clothes. Eventually I got the new car but I had to contend with possessions that had been contaminated , I threw loads of stuff away, especially clothes. I didn’t want anything from the old car to be in the new car. After another year I quit the job as I couldn’t carry on re visiting customer sites where i was in contact with computers and devices which had once been in the old car. To this day i am still aware of objects that are contaminated such as a laminate floor in my parents house. So I try to avoid this.
My question is, is the contamination an emotional issue? Have you come across this kind of mental or emotional contamination before? I think it may be a kind of ocd thing also. I found an article on thought object fusion which explained it well and basically said the problem can only be solved in the persons mind as to a third party the items are not contaminated. I’d love to hear anyone’s opinion on this and how I can move forward as it’s still affecting my life?!