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Dear John. I have recently bought your book emotional clearing. I find it very insightful but I am having a serious problem of not being able to stop resisting the pain. It is anxiety and fear of rejection/abandonment which I am suffering from and it feels like the energy is stuck. I developed it last year when my ex girl friend and I were having a hard time. We broke up and I went to my doctor. He described beta blockers which did wonders but i decided to come off them as I did not want to be dependant on drugs to live a normal happy life. I was completely fine for about six months then I met another girl. I felt fine for the first three months of the relationship then I started to develop the feelings of anxiety again. It is now worse than ever before and not a moment goes by where I do not feel it. I have tried everything to accept the pain but I cant stop thinking about it, I constantly feel like a victim even after reading your book saying we create circumstances to release pain. I now fear that this pain is attracting unwanted circumstances into my life and it feels like I am as bad things seem to happen when the painbody is active. I know I should just feel it and direct my attention into it but when I do that I cant stop thinking about it. Also I have been advised to take beta blockers again while my body heals itself, can that work? and also I notice i cannot watch or hear my thoughts or step out of my mind even when im aware and in the present moment, it feels near impossibe. Thank you for reading this and I look forward to hearing from you. Carl