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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: Feeling superior

« on: March 16, 2014 »

Well, the "system" took care of itself. All my fears that had been held in check by these recent accomplishments came back (weaker than previously but nevertheless still present), and there was this sense in me that I had better not rejoice, because the "fall" will come. And as I write this I realize that this feeling has always been part of my life - that I should not be too happy or too thrilled or too confident, because it will be snatched away by an unpleasant/unhappy situation in the future. Sure, it got me climbing down from my superior position (thankfully!), but again, this is not how I want to correct myself. I want to stay confident and still be accepting of myself and others wherever they are.

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Feeling superior

« on: March 16, 2014 »

There are times when I have done a good job at work, recognize that I am quite competent at what I do, and I become aware of a feeling of superiority. It reveals itself in my impatience with others' lack of drive or lack of passion. I aspire to a state where I am happy with my accomplishment, but also accepting of others where they are. Intellectually I recognize that we have different strengths and weaknesses, and that others may excel in areas where I may  not, but emotionally, I'm drunk on my own abilities.

I am wondering how to use emotional processing to rejoice in my gifts but not be critical of others who don't have this particular gift?

Peace

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: mindbody syndrome and physical pain

« on: March 16, 2014 »

Thank you, John. Your reply helped me as well. Appreciate the time you take to respond in detail.

Peace.

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: Experiencing the feeling

« on: March 03, 2014 »

Wonderful response, jucereca, Thank you.

Yes indeed, I wanted a particular outcome and was striving for it. Intellectually I know that's not the route to take, but living by that principle is quite another thing

It is a lifelong work, but I'm glad I've started the journey.

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: Witnessing

« on: March 03, 2014 »

Thank you! I'll go back to the earlier tracks and progress again, S L O W L Y!

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Experiencing the feeling

« on: March 02, 2014 »

When I am experiencing a feeling (in this case, fear and anxiety) I experience  it as a scene playing out in the future. I don't think that's the way to experience a feeling when doing emotional processing. (Or is it okay?) Can you describe how to experience a feeling without seeing distressing scenarios playing out in one's head?

Thanks!

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Witnessing

« on: March 02, 2014 »

I am using John's guided meditation for emotional clearing. (That was one valuable investment!)

I mostly use the "Witnessing" meditation for working with my emotions. But I have trouble becoming or feeling the witness. (Nevertheless, the meditation helps!). I'm just wondering what I can do to feel  or become the "Witness".

Thanks!

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / When negative emotions are absent?

« on: January 02, 2014 »

I've been working on some strong painful emotions generated by circumstances 2 months ago. There's been an improvement, though every so often I slip back into the pain and rejection and fear of the future etc.
Since two days, though, I've been experiencing a shift. It's as if I've "dropped" the problem and the painful emotions associated with it. I feel like I've delegated the outcome of the situation to a higher power, and I no longer feel inclined to obsess over it. I also feel a sense of respect for myself - interesting because my perceived loss of respect was one of the negative emotions I was dealing with. This new respect feels internal - not a forced affirmation by the mind.
(I was on vacation the last few days and could not practice the meditation, but I kept "processing" it somewhat by re-reading the book and trying to look at it from different angles.)

Today I restarted the guided meditation, and realized that while I could pull up the feeling (rejection, not belonging, feeling like an outcast etc) via images, the images had no sting at all. I couldn't feel the negative emotions like I used to even few days earlier. Instead I felt a steady respect for myself, and an unwillingness to allow any person or situation to rob  me of my peace. I felt very protective of myself.

My question is - how do you process a positive emotion like this?

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Re: Is stopping the critical voice in my head, repression?

« on: December 23, 2013 »

Thank you, John. That was very helpful and clarifying.

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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Is stopping the critical voice in my head, repression?

« on: December 21, 2013 »

I've been doing the guided meditations for at least three weeks now, and am feeling SO much better, that I first want to say Thank You...

- to John for sharing his knowledge,
- and the Universe or Guiding Force or whatever, for bringing John's work into my awareness.

(Interestingly, ever since I began this inner work, almost every single day I have come across a reference on the radio or internet, on the importance of processing feelings! Wow! I must be on the right track.)

As I work on the situation and the emotions, questions come up, and I'm hoping for some guidance with them. Most of them center round a confused understanding of resistance. Here's my first...

I feel better and calmer after the meditations. But later in the day, my mind and my thoughts simply WILL go back to the painful memory/ event. They keep beating me up, reminding me, mocking me, and I lose my peace. How can I stop this mental abuse of myself? And is an effort to stop the thoughts - by talking back to it, by engaging in some positive activity, or perhaps by practicing some other form of meditation - considered repression? Am I repressing thoughts? Am I repressing feelings associated with the thoughts? I'm not sure how to understand and proceed here.

Any guidance will be appreciated!