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THE EMOTIONAL CLEARING PROCESS / Depersonalisation
« Last post by Yacob on August 11, 2022 »Hello, John.
I love that I can speak to you in this way and I’m excited to be apart of this community. I have both of your books- Emotional Clearing and also Deep Clearing. They really touched a nerve in me in a really positive way and I want to continue to learn from you.
These questions have come to me somewhat intuitively during meditation recently and continue to prod me in my daily sessions. My first is about not being able to feel a feeling of connectedness with my higher self. I actually saw this as a serious issue because I assumed the whole point of this type of meditation is to unify with something greater than a conscious ego, so I thought I was doing something wrong. I then got to the point in your new book where you break down all of the chakras and all of the associated emotions and was surprised to see that you’ve mentioned feeling cut of from source, despair, airiness, disconnection as well as clinical disassociation are all feelings that you should treat in the exact same way as more simple feelings such as jealousy, anger, insignificance etc. I’m really intrigued by this concept. Does there come a point where you have to do more than just take a feeling of being cut off from source or airiness through the emotional clearing steps? For example: become more intellectually informed about concepts such as karma, higher self, kali yuga, and really understand why it is so important to treat all difficult circumstances as opportunities to clear suppressed negativity? Or is that approach too left brained? Do we always have to keep these concepts in mind whilst processing a difficult emotion? I feel that if I did this, it would potentially resolve my feelings of being unable to feel the power of a higher self or even to buy into the concept in the first place.
I might also mention that for a very long time, actually for most of my life, I’ve struggled with depersonalisation, which is very similar to disassociation. Especially during stressful times, I feel completely and utterly as if I am living in a dream or a simulation, where nothing around me is real. It is a very scary and debilitating condition that I’m yet to fully get ahold of, even with psychotherapy. I have come to understand that this is probably my brain’s attempt to protect itself from painful feelings as it would rather convince itself that the current reality isn’t real rather than feel overwhelming pain. I have tried sitting with this feeling as well as related feelings like despair, panic, fear etc and taking them through the steps which has proven to be probably the best approach I’ve ever used. It gives me a lot of relief. But the problem with it (and this ties into my first question) is that I lose all sense of connection to reality and the 3 dimensional world. This then causes me to forget my reason for clearing negativity which induces a strong feeling of depression. Just sitting with it seems to make it worse if I don’t simultaneously remind myself that this is in fact real and it is an opportunity for a really significant clearing.
So, to summarise, would you recommend me to stay anchored to all of the information in your books relating to karma, higher self, Kali Yuga, and remind myself that I am truly connected to something much greater than a physical body whilst processing depersonalisation/disassociation? And should I also take this approach with other, more simple emotions?
Sorry for rambling on. I hope you understand my points and thank you so much for your input John.
I love that I can speak to you in this way and I’m excited to be apart of this community. I have both of your books- Emotional Clearing and also Deep Clearing. They really touched a nerve in me in a really positive way and I want to continue to learn from you.
These questions have come to me somewhat intuitively during meditation recently and continue to prod me in my daily sessions. My first is about not being able to feel a feeling of connectedness with my higher self. I actually saw this as a serious issue because I assumed the whole point of this type of meditation is to unify with something greater than a conscious ego, so I thought I was doing something wrong. I then got to the point in your new book where you break down all of the chakras and all of the associated emotions and was surprised to see that you’ve mentioned feeling cut of from source, despair, airiness, disconnection as well as clinical disassociation are all feelings that you should treat in the exact same way as more simple feelings such as jealousy, anger, insignificance etc. I’m really intrigued by this concept. Does there come a point where you have to do more than just take a feeling of being cut off from source or airiness through the emotional clearing steps? For example: become more intellectually informed about concepts such as karma, higher self, kali yuga, and really understand why it is so important to treat all difficult circumstances as opportunities to clear suppressed negativity? Or is that approach too left brained? Do we always have to keep these concepts in mind whilst processing a difficult emotion? I feel that if I did this, it would potentially resolve my feelings of being unable to feel the power of a higher self or even to buy into the concept in the first place.
I might also mention that for a very long time, actually for most of my life, I’ve struggled with depersonalisation, which is very similar to disassociation. Especially during stressful times, I feel completely and utterly as if I am living in a dream or a simulation, where nothing around me is real. It is a very scary and debilitating condition that I’m yet to fully get ahold of, even with psychotherapy. I have come to understand that this is probably my brain’s attempt to protect itself from painful feelings as it would rather convince itself that the current reality isn’t real rather than feel overwhelming pain. I have tried sitting with this feeling as well as related feelings like despair, panic, fear etc and taking them through the steps which has proven to be probably the best approach I’ve ever used. It gives me a lot of relief. But the problem with it (and this ties into my first question) is that I lose all sense of connection to reality and the 3 dimensional world. This then causes me to forget my reason for clearing negativity which induces a strong feeling of depression. Just sitting with it seems to make it worse if I don’t simultaneously remind myself that this is in fact real and it is an opportunity for a really significant clearing.
So, to summarise, would you recommend me to stay anchored to all of the information in your books relating to karma, higher self, Kali Yuga, and remind myself that I am truly connected to something much greater than a physical body whilst processing depersonalisation/disassociation? And should I also take this approach with other, more simple emotions?
Sorry for rambling on. I hope you understand my points and thank you so much for your input John.