The core feelings are related to the Power center. Being bullied, controlled, dominated, manipulated, abused, etc. There also appears to be some fear present that needs to be processed. We assume that all these feelings are trapped in the subconscious and are responsible for attracting the conditions you describe. From reading the books you should have a good idea of how to work with them.
As you enter alpha and start to access the suppressed feelings, you react with panic. The panic is a first-level emotional reaction to the suppressed feelings emerging; its not a suppressed feeling; maybe it’s just a conditioned response whenever you look inside. In any event, your work then shifts from the core feelings to the panic. Your priority is now to process and get past the tendency to panic. You do this by taking the panic through the steps, however long it takes, days or months.
Don’t be afraid of the panic. Take it through the steps:
1. RELAX deeply as best you can with the induction and breath.
2. AWARENESS: Visualize your neighbor while keeping them outside your aura. Let the feelings come up and also the reactive panic.
3. ACCEPTANCE: Carefully apply all the principles of Acceptance to the panic. Don’t judge it or run from it. Become aware of your resistance to the panic and drop it. Be ok with the panic. Relax into it.
4. EXPERIENCE the panic as an involuntary energetic reaction. Feel it as an energy in your body. Be present. USE THE BREATH TO MODULATE THE PANIC. A gentle CONNECTED BREATH (as described in Deep Clearing) would work well here. You can breath and be present with the panic for the entire meditation session – 15 to 30 minutes.
5. WITNESS: The most important step. Step back and detach while being fully, non-judgmentally present with the panic.
Remember, you are making the panic to main focus of your work until it subsides, which it will of course do. Stay aware of any other feelings that jump up and take them through the steps.
Sounds like fun, no?
