Hi John,
Apologies in advance for the multiple posts as of recent. There are one or two things taking place which I am struggling to understand at the moment.
For the past 6 months I have been off from work due to burnout. In short, I was holding a stressful corporate job for over 6 years and between the heavy workload, domineering colleagues and spiritual awakening taking place I was left with no choice but to take a break. Last week I started a new role at a new corporate company and since accepting the role I have been experiencing bouts of anxiety which have gradually gotten worse. Since starting the new job a week ago each night I struggle to sleep due to anxiety.
I have realised that my career no longer resonates with me anymore, and that I need to shift into a career that aligns me with more, but I am also in a position where I need to be able to pay my bills and make ends meat. At the moment my corporate role is all I know. I tell my mind that this is simply a stepping stone to something new and different, nonetheless I still experience strong bouts of anxiety at night and in the mornings.
What I am trying to understand is whether this is my ego creating a story and trying to "hold on", or if these feelings are something else? I was under the belief that anxiety is an emotion of the lower self and not the true self. The job itself seems to be positive so far, with nice people but the anxiety is niggling at me each night preventing me from getting a good nights sleep. I am trying to make sense of the anxiety so I can move forward.
Thanks once again.